Nox. · in · a · blak~ · world

I lay in bed listening to jazz, think about the past, present, and future.

How time really flies when we are really busy.
I am graduating in 6 months time and looking back, my 2 years of polytechnic just flew past in the timeline of the reality of what life is.
Did i even enjoy myself these 2 years? So many things had happened and some are unforgettable and even cannot be mended to
how it was in the very beginning - the perfect situation.
Nothing is really perfect, like people commenting how your grades is really perfect and good and a sure in for university. Truth is commenting gets you nowhere. It is you who actually work for the grades.
Yes i admit that i really work hard for what i am today, achieving things that i never imagined myself doing.

Now i see the present route i am heading. Heading to the finals of World Skills Singapore (Electronics) was an unexpected event. Nevertheless i can already foresee the results of the finals. I will not be in the top 3 position at all. However i will put in the effort in learning. Sometimes during training i really felt like saying i give up, i don't really know what is pulling me to continue. I admit that i don't have the passion for programming but i am still trying hard to grasp it. I don't experience the feelings of others who are doing their major project, frustrating over deadlines and product. Thus occasionally when i see my classmates rushing through, i actually feel the relief that i am in world skills. 

I have not thought of what i want to do in university. I know that is time to start thinking of what i want to do in the future. Some already got their aims and dreams which is good as they actually know what they are aiming for. When i start thinking seriously, i will just get into stages of deep thinking.

What i want to do now is to study hard and play hard equally in the next 6 months.

In my heart, sometimes i wish to turn back time.